maybe by Brent Bunyon

Bunyon wrote a memoir called Burn Journals which is about his attempting suicide by burning himself up and surviving the horrific experience. His first fiction book for teens looks at the aftermath of a high speed car accident that killed the male driver and lone occupant of the car. It is told through the eyes of his younger brother Brian who experiences all the stages of grief even has he goes on living, school, dating, first love. He deals with the idea that he will soon be older than his older brother and that perhaps his troubled brother had tried to commit suicide.
JDW 10/31/06